Madonna Badger suffered the unthinkable when a fire tore through her home in the early hours of Christmas morning 2011.
The fire that destroyed her beautiful Connecticut home took the lives of her daughters, 9-year-old Lily and 7-year-old twins Sarah and Grace, as well as her parents Pauline and Lomer.
Opening up about that terrible day to Oprah on Super Soul Sunday, she speaks of how her faith in the God of love is her comfort and how she carries the love of her parents and children with her today.
A clip of the episode shows Oprah asking Madonna if she ever asked God why he allowed this to happen to her.
"Oh yes, a lot," was her honest answer.
But she said the words of the minister at the funeral helped her.
"He said that God is not a puppeteer and God cried first," she said.
"The God I believe in is not a punishing God and would never, ever hurt children or do anything in any way to make people miserable, to make people sick, give war. That's not my God. My God is full of love, period."
While tragedy can make some people turn away from God or feel angry with him, she said the God she believes in is loving and caring, and leading her in life.
She also said it's "pretty remarkable" the way love shows up in her life and that she "never stopped loving".
"My heart never closed down. I don't understand that idea," she said.
In another clip, Oprah said of Badger: "She is the woman I have not been able to get out of my mind. A tragic fire on Christmas day took her parents and her three daughters. I've held her in my prayers ever since."
